I've started this blog to document my journey running while balancing motherhood, and eventually if I'm lucky enough, my next pregnancy.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Pulling Myself Out of a Funk...

Well, today was the very last chance I could have possibly have been pregnant. No deal. So now we'll need to wait until February at the earliest to start trying again. I'll admit that even with all the list making and talking I've been doing lately about being cool with this, I wasn't. I was beyond bummed.

Last night, we had Chinese and my fortune cookie told me the results of an upcoming test would make me happier. Initially I didn't even think about a pregnancy test; I thought more along the lines of "Awesome. I'm going to improve my half marathon time". But then my mind went to other places... babies. Damn! I was doing so well faking being positive! :)

So when I got the big negative test today, I let myself wallow in my gloom for a bit, but now I need to pull myself up by my running shoe laces and get over it. Time to run. Time to get a hotter body before a baby bump makes it, well, not so hot after pregnancy (because I firmly believe pregnant women are hot!). Time to think positive. Time to kill this half marathon.

One last thing:

Warning to all pregnant women in my life and possibly in my line of sight: Unfortunately, I might be like one of those women in grocery store lines that lose their minds and want to rub your belly like a jeanie lamp and look at you like I might try to put you in my shopping cart and run off with you. And for those who are closer to me than an absolute stranger, I will want to hug you a lot, especially when your belly gets all round and adorable (I know... some of you aren't huggers. But you are going to hug me!). I will live vicariously through your cute little pregnant selves. :)

Yeah... I'm feeling just a little better already. (Just a little...)

3 comments:

  1. Sorry about the negative. Keep the faith things will work out and in the meantime go kill that half!

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  2. Thank you so much! I've got a nice run planned tomorrow and I'm going to just run my butt off for as fast as I can go for a while. I think that will make me feel a whole lot better. :)
    (and thanks for having such a great blog.)

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  3. Hey Liz,
    Keep your chin up and before you know it you will be saying "get this thing out of me" and we will have a new neice or nephew. In the mean time take our your frustration out on the pavement. Luv Ya, Heather

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